CONTENTS:

Teaching 1: Meditation
Teaching 2: Discursive Meditation on a Text
Teaching 3: Texts for Discursive Meditation
Teaching 4: Affective Meditation on the “Black Lady” and the “Abyss”
Teaching 5: Affective Meditation on the “Two Ways” and the “Standard”
Teaching 6: Affective Meditation on the “Temple” and the "Veil”
Teaching 7: Affective Meditation on the “Resurrection”
Teaching 8: Affective Passive Meditations
Teaching 9: Other Affective Passive Meditations
Teaching 10: Stimulating Affective Meditations
Teaching 11: Other Stimulating Affective Meditations
Teaching 12: Other Stimulating Affective Meditations
Teaching 13: Other Stimulating Affective Meditations
Teaching 14: The End of Stimulating Affective Meditations
Teaching 15: Monologue as Preparation for Meditation
Teaching 16: Imaginative Monologues as Preparation for Meditation

Teaching 1: Meditation

Meditation is an affective act of the soul; this is why it has certain mechanic mode, because each being realizes God according to his inner idiosyncrasy. But the exercise of meditation, if contributes quite partially by itself, makes the mind acquire certain habit that facilitates one’s meditation and prepares for it.
So, you need to sustain the concept that exercises of meditation should not impede the mystical progress of the soul. Any identification with them as if they had been were true meditation are seriously harmful because have to be only guides and moulds for the mind. We meditate easily by habit, so that all other exercises should be rejected.
Not all exercises are convenient for beginners. It is necessary to teach them diverse types and methods, so that later they find those that are more proper.
Usual exercises of meditation that prepare the soul for the mystical way are generally three:

Discursive Meditation;
Affective Meditation; and
Sensitive Meditation.

The exercise of discursive meditation is easier because make the mind project an image that the practitioner vocalizes once and again.
Also you can practice discursive meditation by mentally thinking up on certain text of the holy book, keeping a dialogue with an image of photograph, and imagining that you are heard and you receive an answer.
Affective meditation consists of speculating on a feeling or inner image to achieve certain effect.
The soul transfers its diverse emotions, moved by the will, to the illuminative plane. This mystical transfer, of ordinary elements of life, engraves the secret part of the soul, so that the soul uses physical values for the sake of soul values. Usual emotions of life, that is, love, fear, pleasure or abhorrence are used to obtain certain spiritual impression.
Sensitive meditation extremely sharpens sensitive potentials of the soul, and later makes them return to the emotional and physical part of being, so that this part may also share the divine bliss.
In this course you shall be given diverse examples of these exercises of meditation, so that the student may choose for himself the most suitable exercises.

Teaching 2: Discursive Meditation on a Text

Text:

"Memento homo, quia pulvis es et in pulverem reverteris.”

“Remember, man, because you are dust and you have to return to dust.” (Job)

Consider, oh soul, before this open tomb, looking at the body just thrown to it, how all beings have to die. Consider that both rich and poor persons, old and young and ignorant people, that is, all are destined to be buried. Even great beings and great sages die. Look how the Earth has eagerly taken its prey and, according to its cold and inevitable law, is ready to devour that flesh, those human remains.
Consider, oh soul, how forgetfulness and silence will cover the individual being along with shovelfuls of earth thrown over the body in the grave. May every shovelful recall you that, like you today, he also walked through wide paths of the world, smiling at the sun and life, conquering pleasures and power; consider that his feet will not tread the soil any more and his eyes will not see the sky; others will occupy his place, his memory will remain forgotten, his tomb will be trodden down, and his memory, like ashes of his remains, will be carried away by the wind.
Death is tremendous and inexorable for a man who has no faith and does not believe in immortality. And death is even terrible for a believer, especially if he was lukewarm in the fulfillment of his spiritual responsibilities.
Oh soul of mine! As long as you live, take advantage of life, so that death may not be so terrible. Take advantage of the rest of your days, so that your soul, along with your body, may not perish in the shadows of despair and loneliness.
Text:

“Pretiosa in conspectu Domini mors sanctorum eius.”

“Precious is death of saints in the presence of God.”

Consider, oh soul, how peaceful is death for the one who lives as if has lived as if every one of his days had beenwere the last days in his life. Through the sweat of his agony, look how this being distills last impurities in order to be present ever purer before God. Through his snores, listen to the last cry of a saint who seemingly proclaims the divine name, “God of mine”. Touch that holy body burning with a fever; how he burns his life in order to satisfy death; smell the perfume exhaled by the dying saint, a perfume that differs so much from that of common mortals; perfume of sanctity, of absorption. Kiss his bloodless hand that so much good did on this Earth, so that he communicates you his virtue.
Open his eyes: look at the sweet smile covering the face of this dying person.
After his agony, he does not experience pain any more; he experiences joy.
Last breath is like a curse for a sinner; but a blessed being is like in ecstasy, since the future opens to him. Future, the beyond is not the unknown for him. An inevitable separation is more tolerable for him.
Follow this example, of Soul of mine!, and strive for achieving your spiritual vocation, so that all days in your life may be worthy and holy, profitable and useful, as ifas if every one of them had beenwere the last day.
With eyes of the imagination look at that which the dying saint is seeing: paths of light, crown of stars, all his companions who preceded him, and glimmering attributes prepared to him; hear the voice of blessed souls saved by him by singing “Open the Gate”, “May I enter the Peace”, “May the Light come”.

Teaching 3: Texts for Discursive Meditation

Text:

“Non est hic: Resurrexit!"

“He is not here; he is risen!”(Angel’s voice to Magdalene).

Consider oh Soul willing to follow the spiritual path how much you need a Master to guide you till the moment you are able to walk alone. But also consider how many times, blinded by the illusion you believe you are far away and quite alone. Then you weep, oh Soul of mine, as Mary Magdalene before the empty Sepulchre, and you claim: “Where are you, Master of mine?”.
The Master is never detached from you, the Master never forsakes you, though you do not see or hear him, or you feel to be entirely alone. It is your own darkness, lack of perseverance, and lukewarmness in the fulfillment of your responsibilities that make you believe that the Master is far away; in short, it is your poor human nature that many times is a prey to temptation. But the Master appears and rises in you when you are enthusiastic and fervent.
But even so, it is convenient for you to lose sight of him now and then, so that later you may appreciate him more and more, and also to know that you, oh Soul, are indissolubly united with His Soul so that the encounter may be sweeter after you believed you had lost him.
Hear the Angel’s voice: “Your Lord is not here; he is risen!” Your Master is not here in the dark of the sin, in shadows of evil. Your Ideal Master is on the Spiritual Way, in the holiness of the effort. He waits for you over there, constantly; you will find him always over there.
Oh Soul of mine, look for your Lord. If he is risen, you rise with Him in the Glory of the spiritual purification. Clear your heart from shadows, and you will find Him in the holy abode, more glorious than ever, ever-willing to follow the Path of holiness and love.
Text:

“Noli me tangere.”

“Touch me not." (The Risen Christ’s words to Magdalene.)

Consider, oh Soul, how did you reach, on the Spiritual Way, that point where you should be detached from every human aspect in order to live in the glory of Resurrection. You have found the Master again. He never dies. The body passes away, even bodies of higher beings pass away, but the spirit animating them is eternal. Once more He is before you, transformed, transfigured. His light blinds you, you cannot be near him; this would harm you. This is why he says when you try to take Him in your arms, “Touch me not, because I am risen”.
Consider, oh Soul, how you has to be like your Master as a whole, how you have to strive all days for being like Him, for being able to touch and not to stain him. How you have to make the subtle and delicate work so that we may remove the littlest defects and dregs that still are left, even almost insignificant faults that impede you to touch Him.
But, how much joy is to contemplate the Master that is risen, to see His glory and splendor, and to have Him in your life as a token of bliss and eternal happiness.
Do not quiver, Soul of mine; do not wait, do not stop; you are following for years the Master on the path of sorrow. Now you have to follow Him on the path of Resurrection, Transfiguration and Union with Him.

Teaching 4: Affective Meditation on the “Black Lady” and the “Abyss”

Next, some examples of Affective Meditation, easy for beginners and simple by their expressive mode.

Meditation: The “BLACK LADY”. Effect: “ABHORRENCE”.
Invocation:
I ask of Maitreya.
Come, I beseech you; hasten, please, we are adrift.
I call you so that You do not delay your coming because it is time to Redemption.
Imaginative picture:
I see a large void, immense, wide, deep and shadowy.
I see darkness; more and more obscurity; more and more darkness.
I see the very darkness in front of me; it includes, covers and carries everything.
Sensations:
I sense it is time to the Great Darkness for all men; no salvation for them any more; no man will be able to do anything for them.
All evils in the world are enormously increased.
I sense all worldly things must inspire deep abhorrence; nothing counts any more among so many ruins.
I sense here an assistance that is not of this world only to count, help from Heaven, Divine Redemption.
Purposes:
My purpose: to intensify in me this deep abhorrence to human and earthly things so that my soul just may claim for raising and aspiring to a Liberator, and living and expecting this Great Day.
Consequences:
I succeed in claiming for, aiming to and living only for the Coming of Maitreya.
Day and night, in good or bad, I succeed in being anxious and excited for an abhorrence that leads vividly me to claim for His coming and liberation of Humanity from the black evil in which it is sunk, and for its revival and sanctification.

Meditation: The “ABYSS”. Effect: “DESOLATION”.
Invocation:
Please, oh Maitreya, seal my soul to the world, so that nothing may exist for me apart of You, oh Future Liberator!
Imaginative Picture:
I only see a large shadow; shadow of the nothing.
I see in front of me the nothing of the human life.
I see the large shadow of the nothing.
Sensations:
I sense a serene desolation in my soul.
I sense that nothing is in front of me, that I do not recall anything, that I want nothing.
This desolation is pleasant and ecstatic, because makes me understand better than whatever lesson about the impermanence and unreality of the human life.
I sense that I am not in the world or even apart of the world, and what happened yesterday, what happens today or even what shall happen tomorrow is not my business.
I sense a calm desolation, since I understand the nothing of impermanent things.
Purposes:
My purpose: not to lose this desolation and this is why I will empty my thought out of any useless ideas, my heart out of any affection, and my soul out of any shadow.
My purpose: to move away and detach myself from all outer things, and not to let my yearnings in.
Consequences:
I succeed in making my soul stay sealed, with no human interference.
This desolation lets me come from the nothing of life to my innermost being, and to wait for the coming of the Future Liberator.

Teaching 5: Affective Meditation on the “Two Ways” and the “Standard”

Meditation: The “TWO WAYS”. Effect: “DETACHMENT”.
Invocation:
I ask of Him who right now I worship after the name of Maitreya to be my Guide and my Path.
My request is not to expect His Coming, but to tread on the path to Him.
I see the Way, only one Way, luminous and future way; the old way disappeared and has been deleted.
I see the way, straight, clear, luminous way directly to the goal.
I see the future way of the man of the New Race.
I see the way of Liberation.
Sensations:
I sense this New Way as my own way because I am Him, and I am myself the Way.
I sense that so far I did not find the Way because I was looking for it behind veils of my own personality.
I sense that I could find the way so vainly searched by removing the concept of personality and detaching myself from this deadly enemy that is after me throughout life and death.
My real ego, not my personal ego, will be one with my way.
Purposes:
My purpose: to detach totally from myself in order to reach the way of light I am glimpsing.
It is easy to be detached from outer things, but difficult to be detached from inner things, from those things so stuck to the soul that one believes they are a part of the soul.
Consequences:
I get detachment, the Great Detachment.
I can eradicate from my soul the imperceptible dead weight of my own personality.
Finally I eradicate my personality so that it stops deceiving and concealing my true being.
I get the Great Detachment, the inner detachment.

Meditation: The “STANDARD”. Effect: “CHOICE.
Invocation:
I ask of Him who is about to come –Maitreya– to deliver me personally the Standard of my vocation where the name of my choice is written.
Imaginative Picture:
I see the name; I see my own name written on the Standard.
I see my wonderful, splendid name written with divine letters.
I see my spiritual name written on the Standard.
Sensations:
I sense something definitive, total and true in my soul.
Many have been my names throughout my life, which gave me many joys, but their sound never could fill up the void of my soul.
I sense that my true name is about to be revealed, the name only known to God and that is disclosed to those selected souls admitted to His Divine Presence.
I sense that my choice moves me entirely from the world and human things. And my future destiny is to act on a totally spiritual environment.
Purposes:
In glimpsing the day of my final and real choice, my purpose is not to elude the work in the world, but to work harder in the world.
My purpose: to choose my true and divine destiny, but not to leave aside my human work.
Consequences:
I get the choice, not some choice, but the Only Choice, dictated by my divine name, the choice about living in the world, but not to being of the world. The choice about being a soul entirely united with the Divine Master, but punctually performing my human duties.

Teaching 6: Affective Meditation on the “Temple” and the “Veil”

Meditation: The “GOLDEN TEMPLE”. Effect: “CONSOLATION”.
Invocation:
I ask of Maitreya to enlighten my soul with the light of hope and grant consolation and announce constantly His Coming.
Imaginative Picture:
I see a Son; a sparkling Sun, full of glory and majesty.
I see a Sun; sparking, luminous, resplendent, stainless.
I see a Golden Sun, shining with magnificent brilliance of infinite suns.
I see a Sun never seen before; a large, immense Sun. A Divine Sun.
Sensations:
I sense all human affections and consolations to be small and poor things deprived of life, light and heat.
I sense all past struggle to be a continuous race after illusions and chimeras.
I sense there is only one consolation and not two: consolation emerged from the spiritual life. The only heat that is able to comfort one’s soul comes from God.
Purposes:
My purpose: not to grant vain and false consolations to my soul, insignificant alms that impoverish instead of making it rich.
My purpose: to look for nothing, except divine consolation.
Consequences:
I succeed in living by the consolation and hope of the Liberation day.
I succeed in fixing my eyes on the Sun of Justice, the throne of the Divine Incarnation; Divine Maitreya will come to us from there.

Meditation : The “VEIL OF AHEHIA”. Effect: “BLISS”.
Invocation:
May the veil of the time be raised for our blissful contemplation of Divine Maitreya.
Imaginative Picture:
I see a light, an incomparable light.
No light can be clearer, more diaphanous, purer, simpler and more beautiful.
I see a clear light; I see a diaphanous light; I see a pure light; I see a simple light. I see a great and beautiful light.
Sensations:
I sense the time to the New Redemption near me.
I sense the influence of the Divine so near that I feel beforehand transformed. I am ever the same being, full of defects and miseries. But I cannot help sensing the Divine Day so near.
I sense how my soul flooded with light and the whole sorrowful humanity disappear being influenced by the Great Light.
Purposes:
My purpose: to enjoy the bliss of God. Human pleasures are impermanent and bitter, and do not last. And they become sorrow. My purpose: to look only for the Divine and insensible enjoyment of the Divine, which totally transforms human life into Divine life.
Consequences:
I get absolute insensibility in regard to all human and external things.
I succeed in thinking that the only enjoyment is inner, Unique, Divine bliss.

Teaching 7: Affective Meditation on the “Resurrection”

Meditation: “RESURRECTION OF HES”. Effect: “RAPTURE”.
Invocation:
I ask of Maitreya: may He live alone in my soul. May He live alone; may all die, except Him alone.
Imaginative Picture:
I see His Face. I see His Divine, Sublime, admirable Face.
His Face is beyond description, detail and explanation.
I see His Face; Expected Face, Maitreya’s Face.
Sensations:
I sense Your Divine Presence, and this is a deadly rapture. I see you and cannot live any more, I cannot be my self, the Ego, any longer; I disappear, annihilated and diluted in Your Presence.
You only are that which you are and are worth.
I sense You are all, comprise all, and permeate all.
Happy death my own death, mystical death, joyful death, death with no return. Death in You.
Your Divine Presence only stays, is only worth, only Is.
In my own annihilation in the Divine Being I sense the Divine rapture.
Purposes:
My purpose: to make this mystical death effective in me.
My purpose: my coming back to life as ias if f I had not been was not the one who acts, bbut Him, the Only One who lives and acts in me.
Consequences:
I succeed in resuscitating to a new life, the Divine Life.
Now I am not the one who lives, but is Maitreya, the Divine One who lives in me.
I am resuscitated in Him. I do not exist any longer.
Only He lives eternally.

Teaching 8: Affective Passive Meditations

Souls whose minds get tired by successive images and ideas need graphic and simple images and ideas for their exercises of meditation; for instance, as follows:

The “BLACK LADY”. Effect: “ABHORRENCE”.
Invocation:
Let us ask of our Holy Mother: please, give us real abhorrence, which is understanding and indifference to all mutable things.
Imaginative Picture:
See the undifferentiated cosmic substance. See life itself as undifferentiated cosmic substance. See the substance of life like a big, homogeneous, equal and gray mass.
See a gray, homogeneous, oily, uniform and all-permeating stain.
See nothing more than this gray and uniform substance.
Sensations:
As an effect, see how the lower nature is not an enemy to destroy and abhor blindly, but eternal becoming of matter, which is so immense and big like God.
It is only bad when, through veils of delusion, becomes multiple and variant forms, and the individual being identities himself with these illusory forms.
This sensation brings us this holy indifference to all things, this soft abhor that is understanding of the impermanence of all human things through a vision of uniformity and eternity of life.
Purposes:
Intend to get abhorrence. This soft abhorrence that is holy indifference to all things, and clear understanding that nothing is worthwhile because everything has to return to the unique cosmic substance.
Consequences:
You get inner peace that only detachment can give, and abhorrence for outer things.

Subject: The “ABYSS”. Effect: “DESOLATION”.
Invocation:
Ask of the Holy Mother: please grant us that desolation that is clear intuition and understanding of evils of the world.
See the immense stain of the world, a black, dark, obscure stain. In this stain you can see nothing, except darkness, obscurity and blackness.
Sensations:
You see this blackness and the world made darkness, and sense that the cause of this is the big evil of Humanity, that is, big passions, and then you feel great desolation and wish not to be contaminated by this darkness, these passions and this evil. And simultaneously with this desolation and wishes to escape from all, you feel that all these souls should be helped and saved.
Purposes:
Propose: may this desolation that you feel be not only for your own benefit and detachment from evil, but also for its transformation into constructive desolation making wish the salvation of everybody.
Consequences:
One gets a constructive desolation leading and contributing to the salvation of all beings.

Subject: The “TWO WAYS”. Effect: “DETACHMENT”.
Invocation:
I ask of the Holy Mother inner detachment; spiritual detachment beyond all material things.
Imaginative Picture:
Above the highest mountain of the world, I see very white snow on its peak. I cannot see any road, since a mirage of white snow makes me see a big radiation of white light.
Sensations:
I sense I cannot chose roads any more, because my road has been traced, fatally traced, that is, to reach the Substantial Union with the Divine Mother, for the Eternity.
I sense that to soar up high, I have to leave and be detached from all earthly goods, and not only from my own earthly goods, but also from my intrinsic good, of my inner values; that is, of all, with perfect spiritual renunciation and detachment in order to fulfill only the Will of the Holy Mother.
Purposes:
My purpose: never to wish anything, to detach myself from everything, not to wish science, wisdom or spiritual power, and to aim only at a greater and greater detachment through self-identification with my Beloved Mother.
Consequences
Through this detachment, I succeed in staying on the path, finding my way, being myself the way; the Divine Mother’s way.

Subject: The “STANDARD”. Effect: “CHOICE”.
Invocation:
I ask of the Holy Mother: please, grant me unique, absolute and true choice, a choice settled in the very center of the soul.
Imaginative Picture:
I see a beam of light widened, enlarged, and covering the whole Universe.
Light, more light. Light of Light. All is light.
Sensations:
I sense that my vocation, the substantial choice in my life is to give all to the Divine Mother –my being, my soul, my self.
I sense that this choice is so unbreakable that could not be otherwise, and I could not choose a part when I have glimpsed the Whole –the infinite Light of my Divine Lady.
Purposes:
My purpose: to remain in this Divine Light of the Mother, with infinite peace of the soul, and to tell any time to my self: Why should I go on to wish this or that when already everything has been given?
Consequences:
Through this divine and total choice, I succeed in making the Divine Mother live in me, think of me, speak by me, and make what She wants me to do.
I am good for nothing, but succeed in living always in Her infinite Light.
My choice: to be personally nothing, so that She may be everything.

Teaching 9: Other Affective Passive Meditations

Subject: The “GOLDEN TEMPLE”. Effect: “CONSOLATION”.
Invocation:
I ask of the Holy Mother: grant me the consolation of Your Divine Vision. Please, allow me to see You, Mother of mine.
Imaginative Picture:
I do not see, but I see, Mother of mine.
I see Your Image here, in the center of my soul, in my innermost being.
I do not see You, but I see You, Mother of mine,
Sensations:
Through this vision of faith, I sense the Mother inhabiting my soul, my Mother in me, totally in me: in my soul, in my heart, in my entrails. I am sure of this miracle, my faith is unbreakable, and this certainty is higher than that of my own sight. I sense this certainty of my Divine Mother in me, as the highest consolation of a poor soul on this Earth.
Purposes:
My purpose: to remain always in the Divine Presence of the Divine Mother in me.
My purpose: to think many times a day: She is here, calls you and sees you.
Consequences:
Through the Divine inner Vision of the Divine Mother, I get consolation of faith and strength, consolation of endurance and perseverance, permanent consolation that She will disclose Herself in me on Earth, with Her total glory and infinite beauty when I achieve my inner liberation.

Subject: The “VEIL OF AHEHIA”. Effect: “BLISS”.
Invocation:
I ask of the Holy Mother: please grant me to enjoy and live Your own life.
Imaginative Picture:
Mother of mine, I see my gradual self-dilution in You.
I see how every person disappears in Your Eternal Life; I disappear in You.
Sensations:
I sense how my own being disappears personally, as a whole, in the Divine Mother.
I sense now it is not me who lives, but She is who lives in me. I sense how Her life flows continuously, transforming everything around, and Her own life makes me participate in the infinite bliss.
I sense the true happiness is not to live by one self, but to live in Her.
Purposes:
My purpose: to stay hidden, properly concealed and quite detached from everything.
My purpose: may the Life of the Divine Mother –Her Will, Her Eternal Expression– is externalized only in me.
Consequences:
Through this concealment in the Life of the Mother, I succeed in achieving full life physically, mentally and spiritually.

Subject: “RESURRECTION OF HES". Effect: “RAPTURE”.
Invocation:
I ask of the Divine Mother: please, grant me the ecstasy of Your Divine Presence.
Imaginative Picture:
I see my inner essence like a subtle and radiant veil mixed and identified with the Divine Essence of the Holy Mother.
Sensations:
I sense this ecstasy of union like a deep peace, incomparable calm, final and soft staying and feeling. I sense this ecstasy as ifas if life and death had disappeared in me, remaining only my essence through a subtle feeling and an almost imperceptible knowledge of eternal becoming.
Purposes:
My purpose: to reach constantly an ecstasy of Peace; that inner Peace that, far away from big flights and deep disappointments, is permanent and steady happiness. Peace is the purpose of my life. Peace, supreme ecstasy and happiness.
Consequences:
Mother of mine, I succeed in living a deep peace in all my outer and inner senses. It is only you that live in me.

Teaching 10: Stimulating Affective Metitations

Meditation: The “BLACK LADY”. Effect: “ABHORRENCE”.
Invocation:
Oh crucified Lord of mine, please give me the wonderful gift of entering the mysteries of your adorable and divine blood.
I you grant to my soul the benefit of entering the mystery of only one drop of your most precious blood, I will be safe for the whole Eternity, and will discover the supreme secret of the true love, of the Real Love.
But for this I have to become worthy of You, to purify my human blood, and abhor its impurities with the force of my soul and heart as a whole.
Imaginative Picture:
I see abundant blood pouring out of Christ’s wounds. At the moment of the Highest Sacrifice of the Cross, I only see Christ’s human blood pouring out of his wounds and hiding the radiance of the Divine Blood.
I see Christ’s blood pouring abundantly out of his wounds, running through his body, coagulated and mixed with his sweat, with blood of other wounds, and with the dust that covers his body.
I see Christ’s blood becoming dark, dirty, black and ugly.
I see Christ’s blood charged with every human contamination.
Sensations:
Oh Jesus of mine, perhaps for the first time, I sense full disgust and abhorrence, I feel so in my self, in my veins, in my blood. There, through your blood abundantly pouring out, blood of sorrow and sacrifice, since You, oh God, wanted to have human blood in order to be like men and to help them.
I sense my own blood united with Your blood.
All my evils, faults and vices, all my wrath, wickedness, wounds and blood, which I never would be able to clean, are there. Because You, my God-man, through your birth, made inject in You blood of all men, and even my own blood.
Blood pouring out of your wounds is also my blood.
Your pain is of the pure Being who suffers like the most impure man among men, hurts me, and make me abhor my wickedness and blood.
I repudiate my past. I miss the purity of my childhood.
I abhor my wickedness.
Wish I would open my veins so that my blood, all my blood, along with your blood, may pour out and be purified by sorrow, sacrifice and abhorrence.
Purposes:
My purpose: oh Christ, my Lord, I want to mend my wickedness.
Truly I abhor my past, and will not be again that which I was.
My amends have to be continuous. I have to help You with my sorrow and abhorrence. I will work with You. I want entirely to purify my blood.
I want to have all virtues and abhor all wickedness. I do not want to think of anything bad. It is this weapon that will impede impurities to enter again my new blood.
But, how may I purify a blood that now I do not have because I offered it to you, Jesus of mine? How can I reconstitute it? My purposes are good and strong. But, how may I achieve them if now I have no blood?
Consequences:
Through abhorrence for my faults, I get self-denyingsacrificed love that makes my heart beat again and reconstitute my blood.
The abhorrence for human impurities, sustained by a self-denyingacrificed love, is today the only divine force that is left for the poor men of Earth.
Blood of Christ, purify me!

Meditation: The “ABYSS”. Effect: “Desolation”.
Invocation:
Of crucified Lord of mine, please, wash me with the adorable blood pouring out from your Holy Wounds. May Your blood flows over me to bath, wash and immerse me in it. May the most precious Christ’s blood totally flood, captivate and sink me in it.
Imaginative Picture:
I see abundant blood poured out from Christ’s wounds of his feet, hands, side, and head crowned with thorns.
I see blood constantly poured out. This immense blood never poured out of any human body. I see floods of blood pouring out of Christ’s wounds; this blood is shed and floods the whole Earth.
I see how blood of all past, present and future men pours out of Christ’s wounds.
Sensations:
Oh Jesus of mine, I sense how my blood entirely beats in my veins as if it had been animated by your most precious blood.
How could I think that this blood of mine was the only blood? What a lesson you are imparting me!, what a divine and sublime lesson! Your blood, sacrificed and voluntarily given with no drop of blood in your veins or kept for living in your body, tells me that the blood of all human beings as a whole is one, and mainly one because you have mixed it with Your own blood –blood of all men, blood of all times, along with your Divine Blood.
I sense blood running rapidly through my veins. It strikes my temples, excites my whole being, shocks my nerves, and makes me feel like that the desolation of all men.
Your blood, oh Jesus Christ, contains the sorrow of all beings, all tears, all suffering, all martyrdom.
You know even the littlest sorrow that made vibrate the blood of a human being.
Your blood, along with the blood of all men, made you the Man of all sorrows, pains and sufferings.
Please, Jesus, grant me always this soft martyrdom of desolation and infinite sorrow for the suffering of all my brothers!
This way I feel that my little sorrows and pains, which only You experience and know, will acquire immense, sacred and divine value.
I sense desolation in my own blood contacting the sorrowful blood of all beings, and mingled with Christ’s sorrowful blood.
Purposes:
My purpose: oh Christ, my Lord, please grant me to undergo my sufferings with resignation.
I will not refuse sorrow, desolation or grief, by offering this to You; I will transform it into a living holocaust, so that the evil and men may be relieved and softened.
My purpose: to be with you, Christ, at the foot of the Cross, and to feel your suffering and desolation for the sake of men.
Consequences:
Through this participation in a desolate and lonely sorrow, I succeed in making the abundant blood from Christ’s wounds to shed more abundantly over the sorrowful humanity, and to wash their faults, diseases, pains and suffering.
Christ’s blood, wash me!

Teaching 11: Other Stimulating Affective Meditations

Meditation: The “TWO WAYS”. Effect: DETACHMENT.
Invocation:
Oh Jesus in the Cross at sight of all, please show me Your Way, the only true Way marked by blood pouring out from Your wounds.
Imaginative Picture:
I see blood pouring out of Christ’s wounded feet; His blood falls on the hard soil of the Mount Calvary, paves the way, and forms a furrow, a brook, a torrent, a big river of mystical blood crossing over the whole world. Here is the redeeming river deleting bad and wicked ways.
I see how this river of blood, flowing from Christ’s feet, runs from the Cross through the Earth, throughout centuries and times, and his name is that of salvation and redemption for Humanity.
Sensations:
Oh Jesus of mine, now I sense it is not time of hesitation. I cannot tell any more, “Is this or that path?”. No, no! You show me the way, not with words, examples or promises, but by giving your own adorable blood, which is a river of salvation, a torrent of grace.
I sense your words coming to my innermost being and leaving me no choice: “The one who wants to be perfect, take his cross and follow me”, “The one who wants to get salvation must renounce to himself”, “My kingdom is not of this world”.
I cannot deceive myself. All ways are delusions and lies –vain verbiage, worldly promises. There is only one way, only one path, the path of total detachment from all things of the world. Henceforward I cannot say, “Perhaps I also may find my mission here or there, coming back and forth, serving God and the World”.
No, already no! You are showing me the only way, my way, traced by your living blood –way of detachment from all things, way of perfect detachment.
Purposes:
My purpose: oh Lord, I will constantly follow my way, the way that I recognize as the true way; that of your blood and renunciation.
My purpose: every time human illusion and fleeting fantasy is in me and says, “Turn aside from here”, “Walk over there”, I will not hear this deceitful voice –I will ever follow ahead, ever steadily.
I cannot be wrong if I follow the track of your blood, but certainly will be wrong all those things moving me away from renunciation, sacrifice and detachment.
My purpose: to follow steadily the river of redeeming blood traced by the blood poured out of Christ’s wounded feet.
Consequences:
Through my wishes for detachment, I succeed in making my soul be one with the Redeeming Will of Crucified Christ.
Through this perfect detachment, I completely bleed as a man, and my blood and the blood of Christ are one in order to contribute to redemption of men. My only support will be the Divine Blood; Blood of God in me as redeeming participation, which only is granted to those who practice perfect detachment.
Christ’s blood, redeem me!

Meditation: The “STANDARD”. Effect: “CHOICE”.
Invocation:
Of Jesus, please show me the Holy Shroud, impressions of your adorable and wounded face, your head crowned with thorns and martyrdom.
Imaginative Picture:
I see white linen with Christ’s face imprinted on it. This divine face is entirely disfigured, battered, bruised, bleeding, and covered with dust and sweat.
I see the face of Christ entirely wounded and bleeding.
I see his head crowned with thorns.
Of Jesus of mine, I sense my choice is made forever.
When I look at Your Image imprinted on the linen, on the Standard, I understand that, by means of Your Image, you have written there, by means of your purest blood, Divine Rules to reach holiness.
I sense my way is only one –Your Way. It is You that eloquently dictates it– You show me the Way through all affronts and sorrows and blood that you allow to be imprinted on a pious linen for my only guide. Giving everything, and demanding nothing. Keeping quite, no matter how strongly our head is battered. Standing affronts and sacrifices as you stand Your Crown with Thorns. Being nobody. Being unknown to everybody. Being unnoticed in this world, as you conceal Your Divine Face behind wounds, sweat and blows.
Giving everything. Giving the blood of the face. Giving the blood of the brain.
Refusing to be, refusing to think by myself, refusing anything, except Your Will.
I sense this to be my choice. I sense this as my own standard.
Purposes:
My purpose: to keep ever fixed the Divine Standard in front of me, or rather, to hold it up always and not to forget it ever; and to carry it up high as my own sign, my only sign, sign of my own choice.
Moreover, my purpose: as the pious Veronique, make of her linen the Symbol and Realization of my life.
Yes, I will keep it always with me, in my hands, in front of me, will never forget which is my lesson, never will stop being what I have chosen: a soul totally detached, totally self-denying, totally surrendered to renunciation.
Consequences:
I get necessary strength for a happy conclusion of this renunciation that I have chosen.
I achieve this because I rest on Christ’s face, of Christ’s renunciation, and not on my own purposes and decisions.
Christ’s blood, hide me!

Teaching 12: Other Stimulating Affective Meditations

Meditation: The “GOLDEN TEMPLE”. Effect: “CONSOLATION”.
Invocation:
Jesus of mine, let me see you; let me see you in the glory of Your Cross, crowned with your Diadem of Thorns, adorned with the precious stones of Your Stigmas.
Jesus of mine, let me see you in the glory of the Cross.
Imaginative Picture:
I see the Cross of Christ on the Mount Calvary, and He appears within the sight of everybody; his adorable wounds are bleeding.
I see Christ on the Cross, on the Mount Calvary. And on the horizon, behind Him, the whole sky at dawn: Dawn of the human Redemption Day.
Sensations:
I sense ineffable consolation because I am a man undergoing all sorrows in my poor humanity with courage and patience, since this way am like my sorrowful Jesus. His happiness consists in pouring all His Blood on the Cross, and not in occupying a glorious throne.
He establishes there His Throne of Redemption for ever and ever.
His consolation is of sorrows of the Cross because through this Cross he gives life to dead souls.
I sense that the highest consolation and happiness consists in understanding this Divine Truth, in appreciating suffering and sacrifice, in being able to suffer in silence, and in being with Jesus who suffers on the Cross and pours His Blood.
Purposes:
My purpose: to find consolation in sorrow; to find satisfaction in suffering.
My purpose: when my flesh feels repulsion and disgust for its trial, I will look at the Calvary to transforming my bitterness and affliction into enormous joy.
Consequences:
I succeed in staying on Mount Calvary, at the foot of the Cross.
I find consolation in sorrow and succeed in reaching the height of Christ, being participant and co-redeemer with Him, and acquiring powerful Divine Consolation.
Human consolations, which give pleasure and possession of transient things, are fleeting and leave boredom, but consolation derived from sacrifice and sorrow occupies the sovereign Throne of Mount Calvary, and lasts for the Eternity.
Christ’s blood, exalt me!

Teaching 13: Other Stimulating Affective Meditations

Meditation: The “VEIL OF AHEHIA”. Effect: “BLISS”.
Invocation:
Please, Jesus of mine, allow my soul to grasp the adorable mystery related to the essence of Your Divine Blood.
I beseech you to extend before my eyes this adorable veil, fruit of all realization, life of all lives and essence of all blood of the Universe.
Imaginative Picture:
I see extended before me the Blood of Christ like an immense and very subtle cosmic veil.
I see how this veil covers all Earth, all beings, and all things.
I see this veil permeated with the Blood of Christ, and extended... extended... extended... before me.
Sensations:
I sense the ineffable bliss of being Christ’s sacrifice and redemption valid in me.
Blood of all men together is not equal to an infinitesimal part of one drop of Christ’s blood. I sense quite well that all human blood cannot be compared with the Divine Blood. But I sense this Divine Blood spreading out as a Veil of protection and salvation around me, wrapping me, permeating my entire being, changing my blood, and making me participate in the Bliss of the Divine Redemption.
Purposes:
My purpose: to delete separateness of any kind in time, space and place.
My purpose: to overcome any changes and duality of life, in order to participate always in this Eternal Bliss; true bliss to destroy yours and mine, to disappear as a personality, so that the Life of Christ, Life of His Divine Blood may live.
Consequences:
I succeed in being near all souls by this means.
Christ’s blood is shed and deletes all, forgets all, saves all, and only purity of souls remains.
I rejoice because I do not see mortal beings in me or in any person –I only see souls redeemed by the Blood of Christ in every being.

Teaching 14: The End of Stimulating Affective Meditations

Meditation: “RESURRECTION OF HES”. Effect: “ RAPTURE ”.
Invocation:
Oh Jesus of mine, I beseech You to unveil me the secret of your death, of death, and of all deaths. I beseech You, in shedding till the last drop of your blood and truly dying, to tell me why individual beings die and we do not see their resurrection.
Imaginative Picture:
I see Christ dead. I see His body forsaken, lifeless, with no drop of blood.
I see Christ dead, bloodless, exhausted, lifeless; dead, entirely dead.
Sensations:
I sense the death of Christ as total death. Truly, no trace of life is in Him. When an individual being dies, seemingly he wants to take with himself something to the tomb: name, memories, personality, works. But Christ nothing leaves behind Him. All things coming after Him will start from later memories of his disciples. But this so impressive death unveils me the secret of Resurrection. I sense Him dead, totally bloodless and leaving nothing personal behind, but now He lives in all things, in all beings, in all those whom He has loved and wanted to redeem.
Purposes:
My purpose: to get and grasp the Rapture of His Resurrection by means of this sorrow caused by the image of Christ’s death. I have seen how the Essence of Christ’s Blood, His physical and spiritual blood as a whole is dead; I have seen Him getting out of Himself, expanded around, on the atmosphere, in the city, among friends and enemies, in the past and future, and in all things.
My purpose: not to lose this moment of understanding that is the Rapture that transforms fleeting death into Eternal Life.
Consequences:
I succeed in being with Christ in all things. I succeed in rising with Him; I understand that my death and all deaths will be only transformation, expansive Resurrection in the Kingdom of God.
Christ’s death is Eternal Life, Full Resurrection.
I understand this quite well and, through this understanding, I reach in my soul a state that so far remains unfamiliar and is Rapture.

Teaching 15: Monologue as Preparation for Meditation

I am what I am.
I am free.
I lost my memory; I do not know what my personality has been, I do not know my own name or details of material life.
I am free.
I wonder did I have a family, some blood link, relatives and friends?
In the event I had them, I have lost all in some extraordinary adventure that I do not know.
I am free.
What about my studies? What about my opinions, philosophies, books and the past?
I am free. I am what I am.
I am nothing and specifically illusory because I am a part of the whole.
I am what I am, but I am the Whole –Cosmic Consciousness.
I am wind carrying my footsteps, and earth quivering with the contact of my feet; I am the fleeting moan of a brook, and the wild, shining, fateful fire in the forest.
I am forest, strong tree, knotty bark, flexible branch and tender leave.
I am what I am.
Since I am a part of the Whole, I am center of the Universe; God in His expression of individuality.
I am what I am; past, present and future; child, adult and old man; light, shadow and twilight. I have seen surges of life passing by, civilizations growing and dying, souls living and struggling, suffering, dying and even overcoming, because I am what I am.
I live my life; I am free, free of illusion, and self-sufficient. I have only one thought, but it is mine.
I eat my own bread, and not bread obtained by begging.
I am bread of life.
I am the individual, image of God.
I am what I am.

Teaching 16: Imaginative Monologues as Preparation for Meditation

First Monologue: Loneliness and Introspection.
A war diary in modern society.
“X” bombarded, so many dead persons, thousands of individual wounded.
A coffee had in a hurry; unconscious frivolity in a town that moves and runs pressed by haste.
Desolation of some few who see this actual deadly time around the world into the destructive monster’s clutches.
Wishes for loneliness
We are loneliness-sick, but do not know.
We are sick of wishes for examining introspectively our inner life till the cause of our own life, but we do not know.
This sickness of our soul should necessarily be in crisis in order to get rid of this human surge, and to be alone with our thoughts, with our peculiar way of feeling, and with our selves.
In the shrine of our ideas, in the cell of our heart, in our inner imaginative world.

Second Monologue: Fictitious death.
Bang! A little blast; a rapid break; everything is over.
I am dead; it is late for fixing material matters; willy-nilly I have to leave everything.
But all this is as if I had got rid of a burden: the world and its things stay there, far away, among illusory mist; they remain so far away.
I want to walk, I stumble and try it again, but I cannot, and surprisingly I am flying through paths of air and sky.
I see colors and colors, beams and more beams above the infinity of a radiant matter.
My thoughts dissolve: the point is that I have nothing to think of.
I am a vertiginous wheel revolving on the space. On what space do I? No; outside space; outside limit and time.
I stop on a fixed point; I open the flower of my being, and there, just in my self, I find the solution to my problem.

CONTENTS:

Teaching 1: Meditation
Teaching 2: Discursive Meditation on a Text
Teaching 3: Texts for Discursive Meditation
Teaching 4: Affective Meditation on the “Black Lady” and the “Abyss”
Teaching 5: Affective Meditation on the “Two Ways” and the “Standard”
Teaching 6: Affective Meditation on the “Temple” and the "Veil”
Teaching 7: Affective Meditation on the “Resurrection”
Teaching 8: Affective Passive Meditations
Teaching 9: Other Affective Passive Meditations
Teaching 10: Stimulating Affective Meditations
Teaching 11: Other Stimulating Affective Meditations
Teaching 12: Other Stimulating Affective Meditations
Teaching 13: Other Stimulating Affective Meditations
Teaching 14: The End of Stimulating Affective Meditations
Teaching 15: Monologue as Preparation for Meditation
Teaching 16: Imaginative Monologues as Preparation for Meditation